I actually can't believe it. I haven't thrown a fit over something in a long time. Usually, when I become hurt, sad, angry, etc., I just shut down. The last 2 times this happened, I was yelling, throwing things, and became aggressive. It honestly was very scary. I had a complete lack of control over…
Tag: Reflection
Find a listener.
Tonight, I needed to rant. And I had no idea I had to do so. It was not a rant rooted in anger, rather one rooted in confusion and emotional stress. I rarely rant about a serious topic, but once I started thinking about what was on my mind in complete form, I just went…
2019.
The idea of "New Year, New Me" is living in the minds of many as the calendar shifts to a new year: 2019. I am in this mindset, but I don't need a "new" me. I need a "better" me. I don't want to change who I am. I want to be better at who…
My future.
The first semester of my junior year of college came to a close yesterday. Only a few more to go. As I look upon this semester, I can say that calling it a rollercoaster is an understatement. I went through more emotional turmoil than I've ever been in. Family issues, relationship issues, mental issues, internal…
Accepting the truth.
Sometimes it seems like the more effort I put into things, it somehow manages to just get worse. I try so hard to make something happen and put a lot of care into it and it just comes out like garbage. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's the fault of things I can't control. But…
Reflecting on reflection.
At a recent counseling session, my counselor and I discussed being mindful. Being mindful entails being aware of where your mind is at and what to do once you figure out where it is. As someone who reflects often on my life, my thoughts, and my actions, I constantly find myself in the mindset of…
Don’t be afraid.
Fear is something that strikes and holds back people everywhere. Fear makes me so mad. Fear sucks. Living out of fear, at its best, gets you nowhere. In most cases for me, it sets me back. When I am on the golf course, every time I hit a shot that I am scared to hit,…
Stick to your roots.
When I was a kid, my life revolved around my family, sports, music, and faith. I had an awesome childhood, I'd say. I got to be involved in all of these things each day: Family: I was homeschooled, so I spent tons of time with my mom and my sisters. Sports: I was in baseball,…
Preparing for battle.
When I am in a state of depression or anxiety (which is much too often for my liking), I start to reflect. There are many areas of your life to assess during a time of self-reflection. And these things change as you sit down each day or each time you reflect. It is all a…









