Sometimes it seems like the more effort I put into things, it somehow manages to just get worse.
I try so hard to make something happen and put a lot of care into it and it just comes out like garbage.
Sometimes it’s my fault, sometimes it’s the fault of things I can’t control.
But it sucks either way.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I am just done caring.
My lack of care is not so much for whatever I’m doing in itself – I am done caring about the result.
I will always put whatever foot forward that I think is best and seems like where I should go.
I will follow that path until I can’t anymore, and then it will be time to turn to a new direction.
My fault is that I get angry, sad, and confused when I have to re-route.
Why does the road have to stop? Why can’t I keep going? What happened?
Oodles of questions arise and I analyze this abrupt ending.
The fault is inside the fact that I care about it ending – Because I care that it ended, I get caught up in what happened instead of immediately turning to the new direction.
It takes just as much to find the new direction as it does to figure out why the old one is over.
I need to care about acceptance, not the ending.
Life becomes easier when you accept the truth. Most of the time, it’s not what you want, but it is the reality.
By seeing the end of the road I am on for what it is, I can move on much quicker.
No matter how badly I want something other than reality or the truth, I need to accept and care about the truth.
As they say, “Honesty is the best policy”, and to that I say Amen.
Being able to grasp the truth, and know for a fact what the truth is, is so calming.
No confusion, no questions.
The truth is the truth.
I am learning to accept the truth and move forward with those truths stored within me.
The more you know, the better.
And I know that the truth is always for the better.
John 8:32 – “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”