Tonight, I needed to rant. And I had no idea I had to do so. It was not a rant rooted in anger, rather one rooted in confusion and emotional stress. I rarely rant about a serious topic, but once I started thinking about what was on my mind in complete form, I just went…
The idea of "New Year, New Me" is living in the minds of many as the calendar shifts to a new year: 2019. I am in this mindset, but I don't need a "new" me. I need a "better" me. I don't want to change who I am. I want to be better at who…
These last few days have been tough. Tougher than any of us would know about two weeks ago. Recently, my maternal grandfather (who I called "Papa"), George Wesley Nelson, had a few medical procedures, and his 87-year-old body just didn't recover properly and developed pneumonia that would be the final blow he could possibly take.…
The first semester of my junior year of college came to a close yesterday. Only a few more to go. As I look upon this semester, I can say that calling it a rollercoaster is an understatement. I went through more emotional turmoil than I've ever been in. Family issues, relationship issues, mental issues, internal…
Sometimes it seems like the more effort I put into things, it somehow manages to just get worse. I try so hard to make something happen and put a lot of care into it and it just comes out like garbage. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's the fault of things I can't control. But…
At a recent counseling session, my counselor and I discussed being mindful. Being mindful entails being aware of where your mind is at and what to do once you figure out where it is. As someone who reflects often on my life, my thoughts, and my actions, I constantly find myself in the mindset of…
It's so funny how when I am sad, I listen to sad songs to cope with sadness. Probably ineffective, but it's what I do. The song of choice tonight is "Call Me" by Nav. The lyrics that hit the hardest are these: "Do you know how it feels to feel alone?... Bought myself a…
The wandering mind can be a dangerous thing. For me, it is what hampers me the most. One thought leads to another and it's a cycle that is hard to stop. Being bored is not only a situation that can lead to a wandering mind, but it can also lead to feeling lonely. Usually, when…
Over the weekend, I was watching a movie called "The Truman Show". I started to feel a lot of anxiety and I felt bad for the main character. The movie is about a man who is living his life inside a TV show, and everyone knows it's a TV show, except for him. I felt…
I am currently reading a book titled "Everybody Always" by Bob Goff. The subtitle is "Becoming Love in a World Full of Setbacks and Difficult People". That subtitle drew me into this book (besides it being recommended by a friend) because as someone who is a people pleaser, I want to be able to become…
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