This past weekend, I was in New Jersey for a national leadership conference for my fraternity. There was a keynote speaker who came to speak about halfway through the conference about a variety of topics. One particular piece of information that stuck with me was regarding stress. He said, "During stress, your physical vision decreases…
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Reminders make me motivated.
I constantly think about what I want to do going forward. So many options in life. So many paths to take. It's honestly really stressful. What if I choose the wrong path? What if I get stuck in a certain direction? What if I fail? In these moments, I used to get overwhelmed and let…
Control.
I actually can't believe it. I haven't thrown a fit over something in a long time. Usually, when I become hurt, sad, angry, etc., I just shut down. The last 2 times this happened, I was yelling, throwing things, and became aggressive. It honestly was very scary. I had a complete lack of control over…
Find a listener.
Tonight, I needed to rant. And I had no idea I had to do so. It was not a rant rooted in anger, rather one rooted in confusion and emotional stress. I rarely rant about a serious topic, but once I started thinking about what was on my mind in complete form, I just went…
2019.
The idea of "New Year, New Me" is living in the minds of many as the calendar shifts to a new year: 2019. I am in this mindset, but I don't need a "new" me. I need a "better" me. I don't want to change who I am. I want to be better at who…
Nanny and Papa Nelson.
These last few days have been tough. Tougher than any of us would know about two weeks ago. Recently, my maternal grandfather (who I called "Papa"), George Wesley Nelson, had a few medical procedures, and his 87-year-old body just didn't recover properly and developed pneumonia that would be the final blow he could possibly take.…
My future.
The first semester of my junior year of college came to a close yesterday. Only a few more to go. As I look upon this semester, I can say that calling it a rollercoaster is an understatement. I went through more emotional turmoil than I've ever been in. Family issues, relationship issues, mental issues, internal…
Accepting the truth.
Sometimes it seems like the more effort I put into things, it somehow manages to just get worse. I try so hard to make something happen and put a lot of care into it and it just comes out like garbage. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's the fault of things I can't control. But…
Reflecting on reflection.
At a recent counseling session, my counselor and I discussed being mindful. Being mindful entails being aware of where your mind is at and what to do once you figure out where it is. As someone who reflects often on my life, my thoughts, and my actions, I constantly find myself in the mindset of…
Fighting loneliness.
It's so funny how when I am sad, I listen to sad songs to cope with sadness. Probably ineffective, but it's what I do. The song of choice tonight is "Call Me" by Nav. The lyrics that hit the hardest are these: "Do you know how it feels to feel alone?... Bought myself a…