Curious.

I always want to know everything about everything.

Wouldn’t that make life so much easier?

I find myself spinning my wheels all too often, just to find out something that is on my mind right at that moment.

I am struggling with a balance between healthy learning and trying too hard to make meaning out of everything.

I want to learn – I want to advance my emotional knowledge of everything around me.

I also don’t want to push myself over the edge if I can’t figure it out or I convince myself I don’t know.

I just find myself spinning my wheels sometimes – and staying in place.

It’s a hard pill to swallow – not being able to know what you want to know.

 

At the same time, adversity is what shapes us.

If it wasn’t for pain, for struggle, for times of question, I wouldn’t know anything.

I wouldn’t enjoy anything, I wouldn’t strive for anything, I wouldn’t have confidence.

I would be missing a lot if it weren’t for overcoming, for learning.

 

So now, I am a different type of curious – Curious as to what heights I can reach.

I have no idea what those heights are, but I do know that if I aim for the stars, I’m only headed one way.

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At the end of the day, I just want to know my mind.

I want to get a grip of what I’m thinking, where I’m headed.

 

It’s hard to do that with old tires.

 

Let’s put on some new ones and start driving in the right direction.

The wheels start to spin, but we move forward.

 

NS