I care about a lot.
There is so much in life that I put value into.
I don’t think that many of these things will ever disappear from my “circle of values”.
Which, to me, is good but scary.
It is good because there will always be value in my life and the things around me.
It is scary because I hate how caring feels sometimes.
Caring means that part of you is invested in something.
And if that something is to fail… fall apart… which happens in life… it hurts.
We don’t like hurting.
Although I know that pains will come and I am used to them, they will never ever be fun.
Despite knowing this information, I will never stop caring.
No matter who it is or what it is, it has value in my life.
I don’t ever want to throw away value.
It’s like staring at a cake that you know you shouldn’t eat all of, because that’s not very healthy for you, but you value that cake.
Of course, not much that I value is inherently bad for my health as cake is to the body, but it is the same concept.
That chance of what you value being taken away from you is what can be unhealthy.
It’s not guaranteed, but it’s possible.
For me, I am willing to take those chances.
- I know that if the value does get taken away, I’ve gotten through that pain before. It’s hard, but I’m tougher.
- I know that if the value grows, it’s a great feeling. Being able to put your all into something and have it be part of your life is wonderful.
It’s not so much a risk, just pushing through another fear.
With how short life is, continue to take chances on what you value.
Because no one knows how long the value will be there.
I am coping with caring…
By taking chances, accepting results, and moving forward.
No matter what value sticks around.