I am amazed by many things in life.
I would consider myself an emotional reflecter.
A thoughtful creature destined for amazement by life.
But it usually comes after the moment.
At each specific present moment of life, I may not feel a specific emotion.
However, once I receive processing or reflecting time, I find emotions that never cease to amaze me.
I feel, see, and hear things that bring understanding and peace to life…
However, I feel that I am in denial lately.
I feel that I am in denial that these things matter.
I look at things that move me, things that make me feel motivated, things that make me joyful…
I have never been much of a man of action despite having actions planned in my head to do and actions I see would be helpful for my growth…
What will make me change this?
I don’t want to become a hermit of action and drown in my thoughts.
Well, I tend to drown in my thoughts often in solitude.
I don’t ever feel alone and I know I am never alone, but when your own thoughts cave in and it’s just you thinking them, it can be a lonely feeling.
The action of sharing and communicating means a lot though.
Something I always try to do.
However, they are still words.
What ACTIONS will I finally implement?
I think it is more about an attitude of discipline and habit than anything else.
I want to engrain in my mind these reminders so they don’t have to be unnatural.
I shouldn’t have to go out of my way to grow and learn.
I want to create a mind that always moves to grow.
Not one that thinks to grind.
I think enough and I know I always will.
I just need to try.
I don’t need to act upon everything, but I just need to try.
Just do something to create a habit of discipline.
I am even confident that once I just try, I can create a new action that helps me.
I do believe in myself on this front.
Just gotta try.
“I believe a few words can change your day and your life.”