I spent part of my weekend sitting in silence – just thinking.
I thought about a lot, as I usually do, but the one thought on my mind that I couldn’t get rid of was that “I should be doing something”.
I wasn’t bored. I just felt unfulfilled.
I felt like I should’ve had a specific purpose for the day…
And it felt like I didn’t.
I reminded myself that it’s okay to just take a day to relax and recoup.
But I still couldn’t shake that feeling of guilt that I should be making a difference that day.
I just felt kinda like a blob.
I realize now that the reminder I needed in the moment was that “I just need to wait”.
If Saturday was meant for me to recoup and relax, then that’s what it was for.
I shouldn’t harp too much on my every moment of every day – I should harp on the opportunities that present themselves when they come to me.
I don’t ever want to force anything to happen in my life. I want to make sure it is there for a reason and that I open each door when it comes my way.
There will be many doors available in your life.
I want to make sure that each door I open comes with time and is the right door for me.
I don’t want to open a door if it doesn’t feel right.
I just want to make sure that the doors I open make me better and those around me even better.
Here’s to opening good doors.
It’s okay to not have a door right now.
Just know that when it comes, it’s time to turn the knob.