“I may win, I may lose.”
Reflection is such an intentional part of my life and routine. Whether it occurs in solitude, in a conversation with another, or amidst a large gathering, I enjoy the process of taking my experiences and writing, praying, thinking on them to drive an end result from the experiences I have.
Today, although I spent much time amidst intentional reflection, the biggest piece of my learning today was found when I left that space.
One of my favorite things to do is go for a walk. I enjoy the simplicity of the activity and the physical benefits of simple, consistent movement, and my dog is a great partner for those times.
While on a walk this afternoon, as I normally do, I spent much of it in thought on what I had been feeling, working on, thinking on, and learning in my life lately.
The emotions typically bounce up and down in those times, as I maneuver through a myriad of situations going on in my life, whether physical, social, emotional, spiritual, etc.
As I had paused between thoughts, I heard the chorus of a song in my headphones state “Stop Waiting”.
It didn’t have anything to do with my current reflection, but those two words instantly engraved themselves into my mind.
I am a very calculated individual when it comes to my words, my actions, and my thoughts. I always have been, and my intentionality is an important part of my character that I work to maintain.
Throughout my reflection, and today was on some deeper, more intense feelings and thoughts I had been dealing with lately, I became entrenched with trying to mold a plan on the right time for all of these choices, words, and actions to be put into play.
When those song lyrics arrived, I was immediately reminded that there is no time like the present.
There, of course, is a time and a place for many things, but where I sometimes trip up is getting too caught up in curating the “perfect plan” for every step of my life.
In this instance, if I notice there are things I can do to better my mind, my body, my soul, there is no better time than now.
When I was younger, I was often afraid to take action. Afraid I didn’t see every possible outcome, afraid I didn’t understand the situation to its fullest extent, that there was something I had missed…
I don’t want to be paralyzed with the idea of trying to create perfection…
I don’t want to try to curate my own plan when the Lord has a path drawn for me.
I want to walk that path, give these steps up to Him, and be present amidst all of the learning and understanding I have now.
I trust myself to turn the right direction, to walk towards the best places.
I just need to stop waiting for the “right time”.
The “right time” is when it is set in front of me. Every step will arrive when it is supposed to.
Like the plants of our planet, there is a season for bearing fruit (John 15). There are also 3 seasons where we are growing, going dormant, and remaining patient.
Whatever season is in front of me, I want to “stop waiting” for the “right” season. I want to do, see, say, think, learn, feel what is now.
The best season is now, even if it isn’t sunny and 75.
This post may be a bit sporadic, as my reflection, thoughts, and emotions were today, but I needed to put them somewhere.
Thanks for reading.
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