P.L.

I turned 25 one month ago.

In that month, I’ve spent a lot of time in reflection (as I always do) but also in self-improvement.

Much deeper, specific self-improvement this time.

In this month, I have found areas of my faith, my relationships, and my physical + mental health that I really care about and am bringing the best of.

I am so thankful for that and what God is showing me and teaching me.

There is one piece that I seem to struggle with more and more and I find it fascinating – “checking” anxiety.

I am constantly going through every app on my phone, my calendar, my to-do lists, etc.

I want to make sure I am “not missing out” on something or an opportunity to be productive.

In turn, this is actually making me less productive, as my mind becomes consumed with the idea that I AM missing out on something when in reality all the boxes have been checked…

I’m good!

So why am I always checking, searching, etc.?

I am not sure of the answer to that.

However, I do know that there are many internal questions I have about life and about myself that I have yet to find answers for.

I think my soul is searching for a lot of “solutions” when I first need to simply understand.

Take in my present self, what’s going on around me, and determine what is next based off of that.

It’s trying to find my aspirations, my goals, my next steps.

I’m extremely grateful for all of the things I have: My job, my dog, my apartment, my car, my family, my friends, my relationship with God, water, food, clothing, financial stability…

So what am I searching for?

I don’t know.

NS

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