Sometimes you just have to take a moment and look upon your recent choices in life.
- How do you feel about them?
- How are they shaping you?
- What could you do better?
- What has gone well?
For me, I currently am at a place in my life where I am living the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results.
I am stuck in a loop of living how I normally do and I just let everything go about its business. I am not unhappy, but I know where I could be. I know what motivates me, makes me better, while also knowing what holds me back. I can see what the path to success looks like, but I continuously choose the everyday path that is straight as a string.
Because its so easy to do that. It is easy to become complacent and have everything be “good enough”.
I have seen myself in my best moments and my highest points and all of them came from being motivated and working hard. I work hard on things now, but just because I have to. I am sick of school, not happy with some of the people I put myself around, and I just want to chase my dreams. If my dreams are 10 times harder to attain than my current path, I would always choose my dreams. Because although the work may be harder, I want it. I want it bad. God sees my drive and I always feel His presence. I know that I can’t do anything without Him, so going forward, I need to continue to trust what God wants for me and stay patient.
I am tired of being complacent. Whatever my next step is, I want it to be towards the dreams and towards the big man upstairs. Any other direction and I will be headed down the same path over and over again:
One step forward, two steps back.