Holding on.

The concept of control is one that we strive for as humans in everything we do.

We want to feel like we always have a slice of power in every piece of our lives – it brings us comfort to know we are able to hold something in our hands – to be able to do something about it.

What I have been learning recently is that there is one piece of my life that I always have control over – Me.

I have many choices every day, and they are all up to me.

My attitude, my habits, my actions, my steps – every intricate option as I walk through each day (literally and figuratively) is ultimately in my control and mine only.

There can be pressure from this, but I am so thankful that I can always choose for myself.

The few pieces of reflection I have on my choices, in simple terms, are that:

“I don’t want to let the choices of others affect the actions of myself.” – Don’t give yourself away. Be consistent in doing it for the best “you” that you can be.

“It is my responsibility to be my best self (to heal and be healthy).” – My anxiety, my emotions, my actions… they are all up to me. No one else can hold them for me – I must deal with them myself. I have found times where I have put pressure on others to hold them for me, and other times where I withdraw from connection and shelf these things. Both spaces have left me learning a lot. They have taught me to keep it simple with those around you – love them, connect with them, but your life is your responsibility. Everyone has their own stuff to deal with, and it is my responsibility and mine only to be better.

“I didn’t know better.” – There are many times when the choice I made, in the past, was not the best choice for me, but I was trying my best, and that’s all I can do. What I learn from that choice is what goes into my toolbox going forward.

What I am holding onto today is the ability to choose.

I want to choose better for me.

I want to choose to apply my learning.

I want to choose to be a light to my friends, my family, my coworkers, and my acquaintances.

I want to choose to face my trials head-on.

I want to choose within my boundaries.

I want to choose to Let Me.

So, I will go forward today, and hopefully every day, with the choices in my hands.

NS

“I believe a few words can change your day and your life.”